I just saw you again, the sad thing was when i saw you it wasn’t a good feeling. I could feel my blood boil, but then it got me thinking . lol look who i saw you with, i find it amazing how you can spend so much time bitching about someone only to meet up with them and hang around with them like you don’t. The saddest thing is its you doing it, the person who said she changed because she didn’t like people doing it to her, and let me tell you now it’s still the case. The more people i talk to the more i find that you’re still the same. You’re just not aware of it. If anything i should be thanking you for reminding me just how bad the integrity of your friendships are. I know i may not be the best friend but i certainly do not spend so much time putting people down. And ask such specific questions which in tern always leave me thinking that my actions are just. What saddens me the most knows that i was letting you get close. When the first thing you probably did i bitch about me. And its things like this that always made me hold back. I never got the feeling that you cared to much about my welfare. No know that you were just using me as a stepping stone until other people were back in oxford. You said it from the start u don’t see yourself with me in the future and it was things like that that i was always thinking. I still don’t understand that if we were running the same race, jumping the same hurdles. Why did you keep tripping me up always going on about how “you’re not good enough at this” “or i don’t like this”